Showing posts with label suicide. Show all posts
Showing posts with label suicide. Show all posts

Sunday, 14 July 2019

LSD - Between Good and Bad Trip


Few years back, I got a frantic phone call from a friend. It was 4 AM so between my annoyance being woken up before dawn, I asked him what the hell happened. He told me he was on this party and they did some drugs. At that moment, I just knew this wouldn’t be a nice phone call. He said he took some ‘acid’ and now he didn’t feel well. Everything around him seemed distorted. He was ‘seeing sounds’ and ‘hearing colours’. When I told him to go to the hospital, he fearfully told me he couldn’t because the medics would turn him in.

He had a good point, though ... the laws concerning narcotics in Indonesia is pretty strict. So out of desperation, I told him to find himself a green coconut water somewhere. What else could I do? His friends left him when he got too ‘high’. They just dumped him back at his place and left. So much for good friends.

Some of you might heard about LSD or ‘Acid’. They usually looked like stamps and people put them on their tongue. It was known as drugs used by hippies, besides marijuana. There is even a song about it, ‘Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds’. There are several positive ‘reviews’ on how LSD influence arts and society. Many said it was an enlightning experience, getting high on acid. However, I’m going to write a little bit about LSD and its effect.

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Lysergic acid diethylamide (LSD) is a classic hallucinogen drug. It worked by binding to the serotonin receptors in human brain, that mediates the hallucinogenic effect by activating the frontal cortex glutamate transmission. It mimics the effect of the chemicals on your brain called ‘glutamate’, causing an increasing activity of the part of your brain – the sensory and cognitive processing. LSD also binds the adrenergic and dopaminergic receptions, which is not the case for other classic serotogenic hallucinogens.

On a studies using validated psychometric scale on 2017, the subjective effects of LSD were predominantly positive in controlled settings. However at the dose of 200 μg negative effects also reported. LSD at this dose also used in LSD-assisted psychotherapy in Switzerland.

 

The picture showed us which part of the brain activity is increasing after LSD exposure (right). This lasts for about eight hours. The hallucination or ‘psychadelic’ effect, was said to be a result of the increasing visual cortex communication with the other areas of the brain. This was similar to the psilocybin or ‘magic mushroom’. There was also a reduce in blood flow, so the neurons that normally act together lost its synchronization. Some volunteers in the experiment said that they feel themselves ‘becoming less a singular entity and melded with people and things around them’. However, the ‘good’ effects are vary. Some reported effects include : flashbacks, euphoria, anxiety and paranoid. 

LSD is relatively safe when used in medical settings and according to safety guidelines. However in unsupervised settings LSD could causes harm to the users. Acute adverse effects up to 10–24 hours after LSD administration included difficulty concentrating, headache, dizziness, lack of appetite, dry mouth, nausea, imbalance, and feeling exhausted. Headaches and exhaustion may last up to 72 hours. In my friend’s case, he said he’s not feeling well for good three days afterwards.

A case report on 2015 wrote that the user of LSD experience feelings of ‘trapped’, increasing heart rate, hallucinations and the subject was driven to the point of attempted suicide. The LSD was ‘25I-NBOMe’ a hallucinogen synthesized for research purposes. It has even higher affinity in the receptor. Thus, the ffects are also stronger. Most common adverse reaction is an acute episode of anxiety or panic (“bad trip”) that resolves with reassurance and the use of benzodiazepines. This NBOMes also caused tachycardia, palpitations, clonus, pyrexia, elevated creatine kinase, severe agitation, delirium, tonic-clonic seizures, renal failure, fatal overdoses and traumatic deaths.

There isn’t any ‘directions’ on the drugs one get form the street. The risks of overdose are pretty high, because one cannot measure the dose alone. We also can never tell which one is the real LSD and which one is not, as well as when will we get the good or the bad ‘trip’. The NBOMes is one of the drugs that difficult to detect, due to the high potency and small dose ingested. In conclusion, when one wishes to get high or hallucinating using the ‘acid’ they get from the street, they must remember that (1) the careless way the maker might use to make it and (2) one should not use it alone without a sober ‘friend’ and last but not least (3) the narcotics law.

Further reading : 
Cormier, Z., 2016. Nature.com. [Online]
Available at: https://www.nature.com/news/brain-scans-reveal-how-lsd-affects-consciousness-1.19727 [Diakses 14 July 2019].


Liechti, M. E., 2017. Modern clinical research on LSD. Neuropsychopharmacology, XLII(11).
Suzuki, J., Poklis, J. L. & Poklis, A., 2015. My friend said it was good LSD : a suicide attempt following analytically confirmed 25l-NBOMe I

Saturday, 15 June 2019

Suicide Footage(s)

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Few days ago, my senior at the hospital sent a video in forensic pathology group. The video showed a guy, who sat at the edge of a highway and seemed distraught. Meanwhile, few online ojek drivers ran under the highway, waving their hands and some of them made cross sign with both arms. The man was trying to kill himself, while the ojek drivers along with the person who recorded the incidence  yelled at him. 

"Bro! Stop! Don't!!" 
"Istighfar!! (asked for Allah's forgivenes)" 

The guy ended up not jumping ... thank God for that. All the persuation of online ojek drivers worked wonders. Turned out, he was depressed because his girlfriend broke up with him. The police quickly helped him as soon as he decided not to jump. 

Despite the situation, I felt warmth in my heart seeing the people's reactions. They didn't know the guy and yet they still wanted to help him. It reminded me of an old man in Australia called Don Ritchie, who just passed away. People called him Australian Angel, because he often stopped people who wanted to jump off the cliff on The Gap by offering them a visit to his house for a cup of tea or beer. 

Every morning, he always scanned the cliff from his house windows. If he saw someone who seemed suspiciously stood too close to the edge, he rushed off to approach them. To think, what's in it for him? Some of his efforts nearly cost him his life. When he was stopping a woman from jumping, he almost fell with her as well. 

"You can't just sit there and watch them," says Ritchie. "You gotta try and save them. It's pretty simple." 

Those kind of people were such a contrast with another suicide footage video I saw the other day. It was a video from Lampung, where a guy who also broke up with his girlfriend stood at the edge of Trans Mart building. The one who recorded it said, "come on now ... jump! Jump!" as if it's a game. Then when he actually jumped, she screamed in fear. When the news were out, many judgemental and hurtful comments were typed on the comment coloumn. Comments such as "Good riddance.", and "Idiot." were some of the comments without hurtful swear words in it. 

Many people think suicide as selfish act, as if people who tried to do it were doing it just to hurt the others. They didn't realize how much pain those people had been through. They didn't want to die. They just wanted the pain to stop. Their minds couldn't think clearly because of the pain they felt. At that time, the 'fight or flee' part of the mind took control and because they were too tired to fight, they tried to flee. 

We cannot judge people who tried to kill themselves. I'm not an expert in psychology or psychiatry... but I agree with Mr. Don Ritchie in this. It's pretty simple. We cannot just sit there and watch people suffer. We got to try and save them. We didn't have to give them lengthy-motivator talks. Sometimes we just offer them something to drink and listen to their problems, that's what they need the most. After all, what is it for us if we mock or judge them? Or worse, encouraging them to take their own lives?

Being hateful and mean towards people who are in trouble would not take you anywhere. Sabotaging other people's life will not make it easier for you to enter Heaven - if you are a believer. I believe that The Kind and Merciful Allah - Whom I believe in - is not like the mean boss in the office who loved to see his employees fighting each other in order to get reward. He owns every single thing, both that could be seen and not. He did not need us to fight each other because we wanted to be the best in His eyes. Allah is too merciful for that. 

Him, The Creator, has kindness that no one would ever imagine. Small kindness would lead us closer to Him. He loved every single soul as His. Regarding His kindness (that is beyond human's mind), He wanted us to love one another. Thus, the humanity. Do kindness as our effort to love The Kind and Merciful Allah back, as well as for our brothers and sisters in this world. If you're not a believer, then do it for humanity. 

After all, the world is a temporary place for us. Despite believing in afterlife or not, why don't we make the best of it by being kind to each other? 

Ambis

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